i feel?!?!?!?!?!

So today, yes, today, at about 5:30 pm we are expecting to have our very first placement. I am so....ahh, I have so many emotions that last for small bursts of moments at a time. I don't even know where to begin. Here are just some of the emotions I've felt since getting 'the' call yesterday:

1. happy
2. scared
3. nervous
4. unprepared
5. excited
6. nervous
7. hopeful
8. nervous
9. calm

Notice a trend? I am pretty nervous right about now. And I know this is probably normal, but still. I don't think I thought I'd be this nervous. 

I'm currently doing what I think is "nesting". Since I've never had a baby I'm not sure, but just from conversations with friends about their nesting stage of pregnancy, I think this is the equivalent in foster care. I will say, that I did do pretty much the same thing when we knew Anna was going to come stay with us. So, maybe it should just be called preparing and it should not be exclusive to pregnancy. My SIL said yesterday that it's like I just went in for my checkup to the doctor yesterday and they told me they are going to induce:) haha!

Anywho-of course there is the possibility that this could fall through, as a couple other placements have. But, they never got this far. So, pray for me. Pray that, above all, I would just love like I've been loved. And pray for the kids. Unfortunately I can't show you pictures of them or say their names or anything like that, but God knows them by name. Since before they were in their mother's womb. So just pray.